Frustrated

I don't understand why it is so difficult for me to follow my diet.. When I started I was doing so well.! And it was so easy too do everything I followed my diet and exercised perfectly and I was losing something every week.!! Now it feels like everyday I am fighting with myself too eat healthy... Like I wake up and I really want a mcmuffin from McDonald's and a large coke. Now being on weight watchers u am aloud too do that.!! But of corse I can't have a meal without 2 hash browns etc and before u know it I ate half my days points and it's not even 10am... And I go to night school so by 10 pm I've gone over my points for the EVERYDAY and it's like I don't care while I'm eating and I know I'm going over at the point but then at the end of the day I feel horrible.! Like I no what I want... I have the resources to accomplish what I want... I have the support to get what I want... But I self conchasly fight myself like I won't be happy if I have my McDonald's or my hot fudge Sunday or anything of that sort and I hate it.!! It's like I am arguing with myself everyday and I'm losing.!!! I'm not giving up tho I know I need to lose weight for more then one reason and I'm going to lose weight rather I have to fight with myself everyday for 10 years to lose the weight or not I will... I know I have a lot I need to work on.. Mentally and physically and I will take the necessary steps ( consoling etc... ) to become the new healthier me... I just have to start over again... And again... Untill I reach the point where I am ready to actually make a change... It's my choice and only I can help myself.

My Introduction

Hello Everybody!!

I just thought I would take the time to introduce myself!! My name is Mercedes Erica-Jean Marie Harris and I am 19 years old!! I was Born and Raised in Albuquerque, New Mexico. I am a full time Student at Carrington College to obtain My MA Certification. This Blog was basically created to write down my progress and other issues involving my weight loss journey and share them with others as inspiration. About 4 months ago I started my journey at the local weight watchers location, starting at a weight of 378.0lbs.  Right Now My current weight is 366.6lbs for a total loss so far of 11.4lbs. At my height (5feet 11inches) a healthy weight according to my program of choice (weight watchers) I am supposed to be around 175lbs, which means I have a total weight loss goal of 191.6lbs. It is a lot of weight and a lot of dedication will be needed to achieve such a major goal, but I have plenty of support and all of the necessary help needed to accomplish all of my goals.

Below is  a picture of my body at weight 378lbs.